Birthday goodies!


My first post from my new G3 that Nick built me for my b-b-b-birthday! It’s a tricked out G3 tower: 466 G3, 20Gb disk, 576Mb RAM, 12x8x32 LaCie CD-RW, 16Mb ATI Rage 128 Video, 10/100 ethernet, 2USB/2Firewire card. I can now run 9.2.2 and OSX! It’s been fun getting all my stuff over from the 8550 and making everything work. I’ll be transitioning to OSX eventually, but I’m waiting for AvantGo to make an OSX conduit so I can do my Palm thang in X. I’ll be running my new DreamWeaver MX in X, so my next update will done from there. I hope. There are a lot of things I’m going to have to do in OSX before it’s palatable to me, so it will be a while before I’m ready to jump all the way into X.

I also got some cash from Mommie Dearest which I spent on clothes and books (my 2 favourite things). I got a box o’ goodies from Rhonda with a groovy little hippie top from the Village in NYC, a beaded kitty changepurse, a lovely scarf and shawl that she knitted for me by hand, and a flock of buddhas. I love all of it! Dani and Allen got me a handmade silk covered diary – it’s gorgeous! I’ve not received Andy’s box yet, but I’m sure it’ll be just fab! Nick also took me to see Beth Orton Sunday night. It was an acoustic show and very good. I enjoyed it immensely!

Stoopid President tricks

[And these days, I have to say: YES Duhbya, I MISS YOU! ::sob:: -A, Oct 2017 during the Reign of the Stoopid, Lord Dampnut, Prince of Cheetos.]


Argh! And today I get to listen to GeeDubya blather on about how ‘things will get done now’. Oh. God. Does this worry anyone besides me? His news conference was dotted with idiotic statements from him and confused pauses while he tried to figure out what was being asked and/or how he was going to lie. He is such a horrible speaker.

I just checked CNN, FoxNews and ABCnews and not one, not one of them even picked up on the totally haughty attitude that Bush consistently presents to the world. It’s always played down in the press, but it’s important, dammit! He is destroying what little political goodwill we have in the world every time he opens his big fat mouth. He said the following things today, when questioned about what the UN thinks about our (read: HIS) quest for war in the Middle East (I’m not a transcriptionist, so the words may be off a little, but no more than the misquotes I just read at

“I don’t spend a lot of time finding out what other countries think. I just go with my feelings.”

“I don’t take cues from anybody…That’s just the way I lead.” – G.W. Bush press conference 7 Nov 02

Oh. My. God. He is an imperialistic, sabre rattling, manipulative bully that now has this country’s apparent endorsement to bully and coerce whoever the hell he pleases. We are fucked, people. FUCKED. He has more tax cuts planned (more deficits), another middle eastern war, and to top it all off, he’ll get to have Republican judges all over the place who will further remove our civil liberties. And don’t forget about taking away our abortion rights. Oh, but hey, the old fuckers who voted all the Republicans in don’t give a rat’s ass about any of that. They just want gas for their Cadillacs, no taxes and free healthcare. Well, join the motherfucking club, you assholes. And I didn’t mention anything about the corpse (Cheney) running with GeeDubya in 2004. Whoo, big surprise there…God, I really hate politics. And I really hate the direction that this country is headed in. It’s bad for all of us.

Politically Speaking


I certainly hope that everyone is happy that the whole goddamned government is now Republican. War mongering, sabre rattling, deficit spending, environment ruining, Nazi-esque Republicans. Kiss your civil liberties goodbye, and get ready for more credit card (deficit) spending that will take another 8 years to fix after that moron GeeDubya is gone. That is if any of us are around in 8 years after WWIII. Fucking Republicans have gotten us back into a deficit (yeah, that idiotic tax refund was a great idea) and are trying desperately to piss off the whole goddamned world with their imperialistic power trip.

Is everyone in this country of the same backasswards mindset as my parents? My mother really, truly believes that drilling up Alaska will solve our oil problems. She also believes that all the oil from AK is sold overseas, and that that is the reason we rely on Middle Eastern oil. I shit you not. Um, well, it’s public record that no more than 7% of that oil is sold to Korea, China and Japan and it’s also public record (and common sense) that if the car manufacturers would tighten up the fuel economy of their fleets by just .4 (yes, that’s POINT FOUR) miles per gallon, we’d SAVE more oil than is in ALL of AK in a very short time.

My parents also believe that it’s Clinton’s fault that the dot-com bubble burst and the economy tanked. Um, NO. I can’t see how the bubble burst is anyone’s fault, really. Certainly not the Democrats or Bubba. All I have to say is that Bubba got us out of a deficit and didn’t have the whole world pissed at us like GeeDubya. And if it’s not GeeDubya’s fault that there’s a deficit, then whose fault is it? I seem to recall lots of arm twisting to get the famed tax refund passed and look how ineffectual and ultimately shortsighted that was. Wasn’t that a big part of the deficit? Yeah, Democrats may ‘tax and spend’, but Republicans just SPEND. Damn the consequences.

My parents also think that the terrorist attacks were tied to our oil dealings with the Middle East. Wrong again. Those attacks were a religious jihad, dude, and they were in no way part of some sort of oil scheme. They don’t understand what a jihad is in the first place! They think it’s a good idea to put those A-rabs in their place so we can have access to as much oil as we want, damn the cost in lives or money. They cry, “Take it over! Hell yeah, take over N Korea, too, while you’re at it!!” They don’t see that GW is using his political office to continue a personal, family vendetta with Hussein. Isn’t it obvious? GW is fucking over everyone. He is running roughshod over the UN fer chrissakes!! And the American people are applauding this behaviour!!

Americans wonder why the world hates us. Well, it’s because of fucked up foreign policies, that’s why. It’s because fucking cowboy presidents rattle their sabres and start stirring shit all over the world and Americans are totally ignorant of any of it. Our national attitude is “Democracy is OK for us, but not for the rest of you heathens!” Almost 100 Australians were killed in Bali a couple of weeks ago and GW didn’t even call Australia to offer condolences. What the hell is wrong with that pea-brained asswipe? Everyone in the world mourned when we were attacked, yet Americans don’t give a shit if it happens anywhere else. That is so wrong in so many ways that I can’t even begin to understand it!

It’s time that this country gets its collective head out of its ass and realizes that there are more people on this earth than the ones that live between the Atlantic and Pacific and Mexico and Canada. Americans may not like what is said about us around the world, but the sad thing is: it’s true. Americans are shallow, selfish, ignorant isolationists.

I like to think that I’m not one of the masses that believes what the media tells me and believes that if it’s not here it doesn’t matter. I work at getting the real story and questioning everything. I worry about our foreign policies and who we’re fucking over or taking over. Does anyone else? And if so, then how is it that the party that is known for making wars for fun and profit is now in control of the whole government? Hmm? How is that?

Saints, Birthdays and Sinners

Happy All Saints’ Day!

As you probably know, I missed the Jody Halloween Party this year due to strep throat. I was very bummed and depressed to miss this fete, since it’s the event of the season and all, but I did. In an odd way, it was good that I was so terribly sick because it kept distracting me from the fact that I was missing a fabulous party with all my friends. So, to assuage my lack of Halloween party depression, we went out last night. I didn’t do a real costume, I just put on a little Indian top/skirt that I bought recently and did up the black eyeliner and bindis – voila! Instant costume. It was an OK time, but for the most part Decatur was very subdued. I hate when Halloween is in the middle of the week. I did get to see Jody all dolled up for his annual costume contest gauntlet. This year, he made the Bjork swan dress, complete with egg! LOL! I just love Jody’s creativity! Give that boy a glue gun and stand back!!

With Halloween a memory, now is the time to brace myself for another birthday. I love birthdays – presents!! – but I’m becoming acutely aware of my age and the lack of any big accomplishments in my life for someone with my, uh, wisdom. I know I’m a late bloomer, but…

Dani couldn’t wait for my birthday, so she gave me the gift early. It’s a covered journal with sea green silk in a butterfly pattern. Pretty! Nick got me tix to see Beth Orton on Sunday Nov 10 and that will be great fun!

It’s that time again: time to vote on Tuesday Nov 5 (the sinners section). The political ads here in Georgia (and everywhere, I suppose) are completely out of control. It’s enough to drive anyone from ever voting again. Lies on top of lies and meanspirited backbiting. Ugh. But still, we must ignore all of it and vote for each candidate on his or her record and ability to carry out the job s/he is vying for. It appears that I’ll be voting mostly democrat as usual. I detest the 2 party system and I wish it would be abolished – right along with the Electoral College. I think they should put all the candidates on the ticket with no party affiliations at all and see what happens. Heh, bet that would fuck up the old geezers who just look for the (R)! It’s just what we need, IMO.

I also want to mention some of my views about health care in this country, while I’m on the subject of politics.

I’m rarely sick, but when I get something, I usually get it intensely like I did this last weekend. I do not believe in health insurance, having been thru the HMO wringer back when I had a real job. I was treated like meat by the doctor and the filthy testing facilities (SmithKline, N. Decatur Rd.) were run by fatassed black women who were more interested in their BBQ wings (sitting conveniently on the testing counter) than giving quality care. It was a horror. Since that experience, I’ve refused to participate in that pathetic excuse for health care.

So, when I’m sick, if I can’t fix it with herbs and supplements, I have to go to the Dekalb Health Clinic. I’ve used the Dekalb Family Planning Clinic for my yearly gyno exam for about 10 years and I love it. I see the same nurse practitioner every year and everyone is just great. It’s clean, the admins and nurses are friendly and there is NO attitude. Everyone is there to help – imagine that! I go in, get prodded, chat with the nurse and walk out with 12 months of pills in my hand. Since I’m po’ this usually costs me under $50. Really.

The funny thing is that I’m usually the only white girl there. I don’t know how it is everywhere else (probably the same), but in Atlanta, only blacks and hispanics use the public health facilities. I find it puzzling that the majority of the population has no clue that there is health care available without using HMOs or ERs. Yes, the clinics are geared for lower income people, but the sliding scale is good for everyone. If you make too much money, you just pay the full price. I had never been to the Adult Primary Care Clinic before (I’m rarely sick) but it was as nice of an experience as the Family Planning clinic. It’s too bad that the stigma of low rent ghetto keeps people who need healthcare out of these clinics and in the horror show of HMOs.

I think it’s a sin for anyone in the richest country in the world to go without health care. Call me a socialist, I don’t care! Health care and education should be for anyone who needs or wants it. It’s an abomination for people to pay $100 a month for health insurance that won’t even cover 100%! Nick’s HMO is like this and they want another $100/mo to add me to it! Of course, I say fuck that. They can shove their $1200/yr fees for ZERO benefits. The one time I was sick and actually used my HMO, not only did I not get any relief at all, but I could never get my medical records because the cunts who ran the office could never find them again! Can you imagine!?! I added it up and that ONE office visit cost me about $600 in premiums to that piece of shit HMO. Oh, yeah, now that’s value. I simply cannot believe that the American people are such gimps that they’ll put up with this constant ass fucking. It astounds me.

If everyone would simply say NO to HMOs and take all that wasted money and put it into a healthcare fund, I think we could probably pay for a non-profit health system straight up.

My parents and my car insurance guy (car insurance is another RACKET that I’ll rant about another day) are horrified that I refuse to have medical insurance. They perpetuate the fear that if you don’t have insurance you will die on the side of the road if you’re in an accident. That is total bullshit. 100% bullshit. Not only will you get cared for no matter what, but if you can’t pay, you can’t pay. That’s what PUBLIC hospitals are for, people!! That is why we CANNOT allow our health care system to be privatized (any more than it already is). For-profit medicine is wrong and should be stopped in its tracks. It is the same idea as making all schools for-profit. It’s wrong and it should not happen. As it is, if you are unlucky enough to be taken to a for-profit hospital in an emergency, they can prosecute you just like any other business to get their money.

My question is: if you are seriously injured, then why does anyone care about the money in the first place? Shouldn’t a person’s welfare be more important than making a buck?

I’m also astounded by how little people know about their own health care. Americans have become so dependent upon the media and the 5 minute care of their HMO doctors that they don’t even know what meds they are on or why. I think that allowing drug companies to hawk their wares in TV ads is ludicrous! I can’t see that it’s any different than the liquor and cigarette companies hawking their crap! The Public does NOT need to be told how sick they are and which pills they need.

If someone is chronically ill, then he should work closely with his doctor to handle that illness. I always laugh at the end of these drug commercials when they say “tell your doctor what other drugs you are taking…”. Um, hello, but shoudn’t your doctor already know what you’re on?? Jesus! It’s insane! People do not have a clue about their health or any sort of prevention of disease. My grandmother (and my mother, too) is a prime example of the fucking that you’ll get if you don’t stay in control of your own health care. She takes drugs for the few ailments she has: arthritis, thyroid, allergies. I was looking over her scrips one day and I noticed that she had a bottle of ibuprofen. I asked her if she knew what it was and of course she didn’t. I asked her how much she paid for this and she said it was about $40/mo. I told her that it was a common over the counter analgesic and she could save her money by buying it off the shelf. She was horrified that I’d suggest such a thing and indignant that I would dare question her doctor. To her, it is a necessary medication that will get rid of her arthritis. The sad thing is that she is not even on any of the new anti-inflammatory drugs [NSAID] on the market that could ease her pain and really help her.

I’m concerned by this total lack of responsibility for one’s own health and I find that many, many people have it. I can take care of myself, thankyouverymuch. I know my body and I know what it will respond to. I don’t feel that this is odd, to the contrary, I feel that everyone should be responsible for the one thing that is truly yours: your body. People are wandering around out there without a clue about themselves. Women have babies without any idea of pregnancy. Children have asthma because they are raised in polluted cities with parents who smoke 2 packs a day around them. Old women suffer osteoporosis because they never once exercised or took a vitamin. Well, DUH!!!! Get a fucking clue, people!

I mean, how hard is it to take a couple of supplements? My mother has found the wonder of glucosamine supplements for her 30+ yr old horse, but wouldn’t think of taking it for her own arthritis pain. How idiotic is that? My mother also has severe osteoporosis (90% loss in some places), but will not listen to a word I say about supplements, diet and the importance of exercise for her condition. Her oh-so-concerned doctor has her on a crappy over the counter calcium supplement, but has not discussed the newer drugs for reversing osteoporosis or suggested that she exercise to strengthen her bones. Am I the only person that thinks this is fucked up?

Sometimes it feels like I am the only person who even notices any of this. Maybe it’s because I have enough sense to stick to what’s important, rather than what that sabre-rattling moron in Washington would prefer that I focus on.

[This post is STILL relevant 13 years later. How sad is THAT? Obamacare is shit. -A 2015]

Crazy job tricks


This has been one fucker of a nasty Mercury retrograde! Everything has gone to hell in a handbasket, it seems.

I had a run in with a nazi-like woman who hired me on Saturday, then went ballistic on me when I showed up for work this morning. I simply asked her if she was going to use my company for her Mac support needs or if she expected me to do it for $10/hr (it didn’t matter, I just needed to know), and she had a complete meltdown. I spent the whole morning on pins and needles and then she yelled at me again for wanting to move a computer to a different desk. I left for lunch and decided that I’d most likely quit when I returned. Fortunately, it was unnecessary, she cut me a check for $100 and I left. Isn’t that the weirdest thing ever? Oh, well, at least I made $100 out of it, which is about what I’d make on a short Mac call. Hell, better this way than a week from now, when my position at the restaurant is filled and then I’d have NO job at all. The restaurant manager was so happy that I wasn’t leaving that it somehow seems appropriate that I stay. At least I’m appreciated there!

I’m totally feeling unappreciated these days across the board: home, friends, work, universe. It seems that everything I do turns to shit in some way. I don’t think I have the facts to back that up, but that’s the way it feels! Eh, maybe it’s just PMS…