The Halloween party rocked. It happened before the move, on October 28. We rolled all night, we felt the love, I wore PVC and bindis. It was good. The pix are analog, so be patient for the development/scanning to happen.
The moving of Nicholas sucked. He has too much stuff. But all that’s done now, so it’s really not an issue. I’ve managed to whittle down the number of boxes in my floor to a reasonable amount and I like the way the furniture and lighting has worked out. Anybody know a grandfather clock repairer?
Last Saturday, November 11th, was my birthday. It was fabulous, thanks to my 2 favourite people in the world: Andy and Nicholas. They got me a kick ass, original tattoo (complete documentary in the photo gallery) to commemorate my age and to mark this turning point in my life. 2000 has been a big year for everyone, I know, but I really feel that it’s been a significant change for me. Hell, I’ve gotten by fairly well as a contractor, I’ve made Andy a friend and Nicholas a fiancé, I am a certain age that demands attention. It reduces to the karmic number 8 – and I really do feel the karmic energy of what I’m doing. It’s all very exciting and I alternate between being thrilled and scared shitless. I’m mostly thrilled. Mostly.
Now for what you all love to read: my list of current offenders. Let’s see, it’s a long one this time, so I think I’ll just go chronologically.
1) Mercury retrogrades suck. This one was particularly heinous and I’m damn glad it’s finally over. It was 3 weeks of HELL. It wrecked the election, too, I’ve noticed.
2) U Haul sucks. They are stupid, inefficient, technological morons and they have equally inept employees to further their assault on Customers everywhere. The idiots took my money, yet I got no truck. Monday came, and U Haul could not process my order that was placed 6 days earlier and they could not get me a truck. I’ve still gotten NO refund and I still get stupid, insolent employees when I call about getting my money back. Oh, I will get the money. Yes, complaints were filed with them and the BBB. U Haul are buttlickers. Ryder, on the other hand, ROCKS. They had a truck for me and I picked it up within the hour.
3) Nick has too much stuff. Having to rent the truck an extra day and having to rent a second storage bin sucks.
4) Customers who drag out payments suck. I hate to wait.
5) Being way older than you look can be very cool. But it can suck to have this much experience when your friends don’t. Like Yoda I feel.
6) Birthdays are beginning to suck. This one was waaaaaaay cool thanks to my favourite humans, but I can see where hating birthdays can be a real thing. I must remember that this number reduces to the karmic number 8. Use this power I must.
7) It sucks when people who are supposedly your friends FORGET your fucking birthday. Geez, people, a freaking e-card wouldn’t kill ya, would it? You know who you are.
8) It sucks when you have to give up on a person you’ve tried to be friends with for 2 years. It’s the age thing again. She is too young and too self involved to even give a shit whether or not she burns bridges. Hell, I can’t condemn her for it — I was impetuous when I was twenty-freaking-three. Gotta let it go, though. She is brilliant and lovely and sharp like a broken bottle in shallow water. Maybe in another life or maybe later on in this one. But not now.
9) And finally, that goddamned Artist Way class. It has commenced its previous suckage with a vengeance. I’m not going any more. I really like the book and I enjoy the tasks and stuff, but the classes themselves SUCK ASS. It’s simply AA for artists. This one chick has decided that the class is all about her “process” and I’ve had enough. I’ll tell ya what her “process” is: it’s attending goddamned Meetings every single night and having no life other than wallowing in her own self pity. Ugh. I’m more than a little peeved at the leader of the class as well, who advised me to attend Al-Anon Meetings because I’m trying to find out how to support my fiance’s efforts to unblock himself. She (and obviously the Meeting addict) think that the whole fucking world should attend Meetings!! That is soooo offensive to me! She has no idea how offended I really am. Heh, guess she will now. :-)
I happen to feel that Meetings only help 1% of the 1% of the population that actually go to them. All the rest of the habitual attenders are just substituting talking about their addiction for the actual addiction. And I think that is sad. I’m of the opinion that wallowing in your problems is not a way to get out of them. I think you’ve got to suck it up and get off yer goddamned ass and do the work to dig yourself out of whatever pit you’ve fallen into. No therapist or group wallow will do the work for you. Ever. Heh, but that’s just my opinion. And that’s how it worked for me. My 3 years of therapy didn’t really do that much — it’s the work after the therapy that got me on the right track. I think unless one is truly mentally ill (as in: medicated by Doctors and/or committed) neuroses are self inflicted and self cured. We are a country of neurotic, self involved crybabies who adore whining. Why else would trashy talk shows be so highly rated?
Well. That sure felt good. I’ve had about enough hanky twisting for a while. I’m happy to have the burden of that class off my shoulders. I hope Nick understands and I hope he can still get something out of it. After all, I’m having to do a website in exchange for the class and I’d hate to have to do all that for nothing. He is not as offended by the whole AA atmosphere as I am, anyway, so I’m sure he’ll finish.
Oh, and let’s not forget: it’s ALL about ME now. By God, I’m 35 years old and I am hitting my stride. The rest of you can kiss my karmic number 8 ass. You think it’s bad now, just give me a few more years. :->
EAT MY DUST.
