Current Events

I’ve been fiddling with some new projects lately. I have begun working with PMC (Precious Metal Clay), PMC3 pure silver, to be specific. I totally love it. It’s clay, so you can make something, remake it, or do something entirely different without losing material. Even if it dries and you decide you don’t like it, you can grind up the dried clay into a powder and rehydrate it to use again. Brilliant!

Like most hobbies (for ME anyway), this one will cost you about $150-200 to get started. I’m not using a kiln (add $300 to that startup cost), just a simple butane torch. This limits the sorts of things you can make with PMC to earrings and pendants because of strength issues. In order to get a very strong metal for a ring, it needs to be fired for a long period of time in a kiln rather than fired for 2.5 minutes under torch. Which is fine, there is a ton of special supplies you need to make rings anyway. We’ll see about rings if I sell any of the stuff I’ve made. These are the things I’ve cranked out so far:

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They will be up for sale at my Etsy shop shortly. I gotta get photos done for them. The small ones will be approximately $15, the larger ones will be approximately $30 for just the pendant. The chains will run $15 and up. I hand oxidize the chains since they are hard to find pre-oxidized. PMC3 runs around $1.88/gm so I’ll have to run the numbers to get the final prices.

It appears that the hormone induced insomnia is back. I knew my few months of good sleep was just a respite from the horrors of menopause. I think the Mirena is losing steam, as I figured it would. Gyno says that it should continue to work even tho it’s at the prescribed end of its life, but I doubt I’d get that lucky. We’ll see.

I’m having a low period in general. I feel very unconnected and vaguely depressed. I’ve been limiting drinking and counting calories for a couple of months and lost all of TWO pounds. Fuck. I’m going to have to get the sleeve, I think. It just feels like everything is costing tons of money and it’s all OUTGOING rather than INCOMING. It’s not entirely true, we’ve been selling stuff on eBay and making some money, but I still feel that we’re hemorrhaging money. I think the anxiety of Nick’s job ending is fucking with me. He said the other night that he’d need to make $250/day to bring in the same money as now. That figure terrified me. $250 a DAY? How will we accomplish this? I’ve no idea. Fuck.

We’re toying with the idea of buying pallets of overstock from liquidation.com for pennies on the dollar and then selling that stuff on eBay. LOTS of people do it and make a living at it. We’re also trying to find some good dumpsters to dive – retail stuff, like Best Buy, Office Depot, etc. There are people who make livings doing this, too. We are scavengers by nature, so this appeals to us, but we drove around Gwinnett the other day and found pretty much nothing usable. Liquidation.com will probably be our first thing to try. But $250/day… Fuck.

I realise that two nights of VERY limited sleep is making me overly anxious today. It’s hard to keep it together when your brain is buzzing with completely random SHIT and playing the same three songs endlessly. ARGH. I’m trying to stay off FB so I won’t continue the fight I’m having with a pompous ASSHOLE that I’ve still got on my FL for some reason. I should mute his ass. But today is not the day to make those decisions. I’m too volatile.

I think I’ll go grocery shopping. Maybe drive around for a bit. SOMETHING. Blaaaahhhhhhh.

August already!

This year has been a big one. And bit of a bitch of one, as well.

We finally got up and moved out of the ‘hood, which is good for the most part. We pay too much rent. But we love the house. Nick is happy, so that makes it worth it.

I’ve come into another patch of insomnia. It’s been three weeks since I had a normal night’s sleep. I went to the Dr, who is being cooperative with trying to find something that works. The first one didn’t. The one I’m trying now (trazodone) doesn’t seem to be working, either. I’m SO TIRED. And SO cranky. I’m impaired for sure. I really have a hard time doing any sort of complicated thinking. I can’t remember anything, either.

So I’ve got Heather coming for a visit in September. Everyone is pushing their own agendas for Heather’s time, which is fine, but what is not fine is that when I am left to try to fix a fucked up reservation and a certain individual decides I’m not doing it right, it kinda honks me off. I’m tired, cranky and really would rather not waste my time fixing a fucked up reservation, only to be told I’m a “childish asshole” for getting pissy when my efforts are deemed in adequate. I want Heather to have a good time, so I’m backing out of any and all planning for this. If this person doesn’t like my planning techniques, then HE can do it. I’m OUT. I’ll let all those people fight over Heather and I’ll just take what I can get. Whatever. It’s not about me (or the jerkwad in question), it’s about HEATHER. So she can pick what she wants to do and I’ll do what I can to assist in making it happen. But I really don’t need the abuse of one asshole, thanks. I’ve got enough on my plate.

I hope Heather gets to do all the things she wants to do while she’s here in September. I just want her to have a great time and to see everyone she’s not seen in three years. Hopefully the disorganised mess of people vying for her time will get it worked out.

Ugh. I hate that insomnia sucks away my days, my creativity, my LIFE. I feel like every day is just a slog to get through so I can have yet another sleepless night. IT SUCKS. If you’ve not had extended bouts of insomnia, then you just don’t know how much it ruins EVERYTHING. Every. Fucking. Thing.

I hope the drugs will start working so I’ll have enough energy to get through DragonCon. Conventions SUCK when you are tired at the start and it just gets worse, trust me.

So that’s what’s up. I’m tired. I’m cranky. And I am doing the best I can. If that’s not good enough, then FUCK OFF.

Stream of Consciousness post

Just a rambling, what’s on my mind kind of post. No real theme or anything.

DJ: Poor old thing. His face is a mess from runny eyes and his ulcerated nose. He’s skin and bones. He’s got some sort of urinary tract issue – probably bladder stones – that we’ll get looked at on Thursday. The good news is that taking him off of fluconazole has helped with his puking and he’s eating a LOT more now. Guess that crap really did cause stomach upset! He’s not gaining weight that I can see, but he is certainly eating more. He won’t eat cat food, tho, he eats a gruel that I make from ham baby food, chicken stock, supplements and a little cat food blended in. It looks gross, but he eats it, so that’s what he gets. He’s taken to asking for food several times a day and of course I give it to him. Mangia!

Missy: Miss Rottenness is doing well. She had abscessed anal glands a few weeks ago and had to have minor surgery. She came through it well and her little ass is getting furry once again. Who knew kitties had ass cheeks?? LOL SO CUTE. Her thyroid has stabilised w/ the meds and she’s doing very well. Bossy as ever.

We have been coming off of Celexa for a few days. We’d knocked it down to 5mg every other day, which is pretty much not enough to do anything other than keep us off kilter, so we stopped it on Saturday. For our efforts, we’ve both had insomnia since then: I had mine night before last and Nick had his last night. Nice. Fucking antidepressants are the most addictive crap ON THE PLANET. DON’T START THEM!! Getting off them is worse than what you started them for in the first fucking place. Damn. Hopefully some insomnia will be the worst of it. ::fingers crossed:: [Nick has been on them for a while now and is doing GREAT. They just don’t agree with ME. -A 1.11.22]

While we are in waiting mode as far as trying again for a new house, we are working on our business plan for the pub. We still have hardons for the old James Joyce building, but I’m also enquiring about some lease space around Avondale and Decatur. It’s hard to make a business plan with projections when you have nothing to base it on! I think I’ll work backwards from the expenses to see what we’ll need to make to break even, make a small profit and make a medium profit. I think that’s all I can do.

I’m fighting the feelings of OMG WHAT AM I DOING and being generally overwhelmed by all of this business plan stuff. I keep telling myself, “people do this EVERY DAY”, but I still feel quite inadequate. Rob is being awesome and helping me a lot, but it’s still pretty fucking terrifying. Bleh.

To keep my sanity in all this, I am going to work on some recipes rather than numbers today. I think having a menu sample attached to the business plan would be a good thing and it is something that I enjoy and find relaxing. Like cooking!

Eh, I guess that’s it for the State of the Weasels.

Why now?

So the pollen counts are past their peak and now I get completely beaten down by snot. WTF? I started feeling funky yesterday afternoon and ended up not sleeping AT ALL last night due to a big solid wad of snot trying to suffocate me. Clearly I did not take enough drugs. :-(

So, today I am completely out of it: sore all over, headache, tired as hell and of course, still snotty.

Damn I so want to move to the desert. I can take the heat better than this pollen crap.

Don’t bother calling me today, routine callers. I’ll not be answering the phone and will most likely be sleeping all afternoon. If you do call and wake me, well, you know how cranky I am…

I feel like little bitty rat turds…