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Gloom, despair…

and agony on me. Deep dark depression, excessive misery. If it weren’t for bad luck, I’d have no luck at all. Gloom despair and agony on me.



I have to stop reading gloomy books and watching gloomy TV specials about the decline of America. It’s happening and will continue to happen and there is not one thing I can do about it, so why expose myself to so much GLOOM? Meh.

I’m a realist. I prefer to see things how they are rather than pretend that it’s different. That said, I also have to be wary of my Scorpio nature and avoid wallowing. I’ve been wallowing in the bad news lately. It’s true that American is in decline as is the rest of Western civilisation. Reading books and watching shows won’t change that. Neither will camping out in a park, for that matter. It’s WAY WAY beyond that happy crappy.

But why not just step back and try to find a reason to be happy? I’m trying, I swear, but I’m not getting anywhere. I’ve had a string of failures the last few years that have been demoralising and, well, a DRAG, MAN. Weight loss: FAIL. Breaking Think Weasel! out into something profitable: FAIL. Selling jewelry: FAIL. Trying to sell extra crap and clothes for some cash: FAIL. Attitude adjustment: FAIL. Staying young: FAIL. Doing volunteer work: FAIL. Conquering the Vile Organ: FAIL. Making enough extra money to bail us out: FAIL. Trying to stop drinking/smoking: FAIL. Hell, even the antidepressants failed! THAT is a serious FAIL.

I mean, really? REALLY? There is precious little I’ve done in the past few years that is NOT a failure. Then I look around and the whole goddam world is failing. Everything.

Well, when I put it like that, I guess there’s a reason I’m off my game lately, eh? Let the WHINING BEGIN. Continue reading “Gloom, despair…”

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Attitude Adjustment in Progress…

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It’s that time of year when I start analysing (obsessing) over what the fuck (WTF) I’m doing with my life and WTF I intend to do as it goes along.

As usual, the Universe is kind enough to drop me hints about WTF I should think about changing. Thanks Universe. I needed this!

First, I read a post by my friend Green who is more or less in the same place as I at the moment. He says:

“I don’t know how long it’s been since I was ME, and not just a place-holder standing in where I should have been.”

Yup, I know that feeling. There’s too much and not enough going on. There’s too much nice and too much snark. Nothing is balanced. And I’m not here much of the time. Gotta FIX THAT.

I’ve also seen a couple of things about body image that have reminded me to STOP beating myself up for being a fat old lady. It’s my fate, why be maudlin? First, I saw the American Apparel plus size incident and I subsequently removed their shit from our store. I am not going to sell AA’s high priced crappy shirts (they ALWAYS get holes) and support those hipsters who think it’s cool to trash fat girls. Fuck them.

In between these reality checks, I cleaned out my closet of the size 10 clothes I’ll never wear again. I’m going to consign what I can and perhaps make some money to finance my NEW wardrobe. I’ll get a waist cincher and move the fuck on. Sitting here moaning about my fat ass is not really helping me have a happy life, yanno? I’m on the downside of middle age, it’s time to let go of shit from my 20s/30s. If I lose the weight, great, if not, well, WHATEVER. I’m so tired and miserable of constantly dieting. What is the goddam point of dieting when you’re middle aged? Clearly you are not going to be 30 EVER again, so why be miserable about it?

I also read a great article about being a blogger today (although I don’t really consider myself a “blogger” since it’s not my job). The article is at Forbes (and has HUGE fonts and is spread over three pages to get maximum ADS in your face, gross). I like this quote about being a blogger and putting it out there for all to see and criticise:

It’s about people who get on the stage and people who don’t, and there are days when you have to remind yourself which person you are. – Susannah Breslin

I’m always introspective before my birthday and this year is no different. BUT hey, this year it’s 11/11/11, which is pretty fucking EPIC even if the number of the birthday is quite large. Heh.

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RIP Steve Jobs

February 24, 1955 – October 5, 2011

This is a large post made up of the smaller posts I made around the intertubes regarding Jobs’ death and its impact on me.

First, G+:
“Yah. A man I didn’t know died. And it feels like he was family. Steve Jobs’ vision absolutely changed my life. Mac changed my life. I wouldn’t have found my inner geek or learned graphics or even met Nick.

A man I didn’t know died today. And I’m pretty damn upset.

Thank you Steve Jobs, for your brilliant gifts to the world. And for your influence on my life.

RIP Steve Jobs

-Angela
Mac geek since 1995”

And the G+ follow up:
“I know many people don’t understand the reaction to Jobs’ death. It seems weird that the death of a CEO would matter. I didn’t expect it to matter as much to me as it did. I was surprised to have a strong reaction, actually. But when I started enumerating the things that I have today that I would NOT have had w/out Apple in my life the list got pretty personal. Lessee: my career, my life path, my HUSBAND. All these things are pretty much directly connected to that little Happy Mac. That is NOT an exaggeration.

So, for all the snarky bitches who’ve been talking about my “crazy cultist” goings on: FUCK YOU. You know who you are and YES I noticed. You’ve dropped (more) in my estimation of your character. Expect to see much less of me on various media and in person. If you had any passion in your sad lives, you’d understand. But, OH, nevermind, Hoarders is on. /snark/”

That was pointedly at the FB bitches who thought I wouldn’t see the thread. I did.

For the record, I think that putting flowers at Apple stores is a bit odd, but people react in different ways. They did that for Princess Diana and I didn’t get it then, either. But I do understand all the tributes and thank-yous going around the web.

It’s not the hardware. Or the stores. Or even the man himself. It’s the brave forget-the-past attitude. It’s the crazy innovation. It’s the ideals that Apple represents that move us.

It’s that little Happy Mac that changed the whole course of my life. THAT is what we’re talking about.

Some people are too shallow to get it. That is abundantly clear. But I tell you, moronic comments like “He was not a nice man.” really hack me off because a) oh, did you KNOW him? b) can you cite examples? c) NO ONE is talking about him PERSONALLY, duh.

I didn’t know Jobs. I’m not sad for him personally, I’m sad because now Apple will just be another tech company run by a boring old dude (and good gods, Tim Cook is boring and dry and corporate. ::shudder::). Once Jobs’ ideas/products have all played out, there will be no more. That light of innovation is gone. He most certainly is the Edison of our time. The bitchy people that won’t acknowledge that are actually the ones who are playing the Mac vs PC card, not the people that appreciate Jobs for what he did for the tech industry. The Mac vs PC debate is irrelevant. As are the bitchy posts. (And last time I checked, Apple is worth more than MS, so you can suck on that.)

The bottom line is that we are not Apple “cultists”. We are people who have honestly been affected by that Little Happy Mac. We are people who have no problem paying more for hardware in order to get the elegant OS. And most PC users have an iPhone in their pocket, so YOU are Apple “cultists”, too.

How do you like us now? ;)

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Why I don’t read Marvel or DC

This whole reboot bullshit has really got my knickers in a knot. And it’s exactly why I have not and will not read Marvel or DC comics. It’s stupid and it’s a blatant money grab.

Marvel has always put me off with their umpty gazillion multiverse crap. I don’t like having to have an encyclopaedia of the characters to keep up with what’s going on, ok? Call me crazy, but a bit more STORY and a bit less shenanigans would do your characters good.

DC has now rebooted. What a crock of shit. We need money, so let’s start at #1 again and all the avid “buy anything” comics nerds will go for it. DING DING DING!

I just don’t have the patience to deal with Marvel and DC. I want to read a comic with a story and characters that are TRUE to the ideals they are representing and are in ONE universe. Is that so hard? Apparently.

All this shuck and jive nonsense just puts me completely off superheroes. I’ve never been a huge fan in the first place, but damn, I really don’t see the reason to start if the characters I love will get gutted by a marketing scheme. DC and all their #1s can suck it. It’s a marketing scheme and it sullies the whole industry.

It’s shit like this that keeps comics relegated to the nerds and kids. I feel that the complete disrespect DC is showing its characters and its readers is breathtaking. Marvel pisses me off with the multiverse bullshit, but at least it’s organised! There is some sort of order to how it’s done. DC just flipped off everything and threw continuity (and integrity, IMO) out the window.

Ugh. I’ll stick with my indie comics, thanks. Marvel and DC can just keep on relying on that choir of old comics nerds to buy their crazy schemes, because I’m here to tell you, doing crap like they do is not doing anything to garner a new generation.

I encourage any and all of you displaced Marvel and DC refugees to try out an indie comic TODAY. Here are a few to get you started (and yes, some are via subsidiaries of the Big Two):

Think Weasel! (of course, you knew I’d pimp US!)
Serenity Rose
Anything by Terry Moore
Locke and Key
Little Vampires
Cleopatra In Space
Chew
(anything from SLG comics, really)
iZombie

And SO many more! Cruise the indie section at your local comic shop and show us some love!

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MacPro Goodness!

I write this from my new (to me) MacPro. It’s VERY fast! And I’m also using the oh so vaunted Chrome. I still don’t like it. Guess I’m just a Mozilla girl. Twhirl finally died. It just will not run. WAH! I’m using Echofon, which is ok, but I really prefer having separate windows for each Twitter feed. Dammit, Seesmic. Why did you drop Twhirl in the first place? You suck, Seesmic.

Nick is home from work today. He’s not been feeling well. I’m not either, really. I’m kinda stuffy and achey. I didn’t sleep all that well. Bleh.

I delivered a 10 minute long rant to Nick last night about why I think DC and Marvel suck. I shall try to recreate it here. The next post will be about that.

The chick at Centennial Park turned out to be a passive aggressive CUNT. She’s one of those who will say whatever you want to hear then turn on you when your guard is down. Typical Southern Female. Gahroce.

The Friends of Dekalb Animals website is pretty much done. It turned out nicely and the ladies love it. Yay!

I got some GREAT skullies at the con in Nashville. There was a jewelry show in an adjacent building that I couldn’t resist! I spent $60 on really cool beads and some sterling findings. This guy had mounds of strung beads for $3 each! WAHOOOO! So, yah, we made a grand total of $29 at that shitty con and I spent $84 between the beads and some presents I got for my girlfriends. I think I may be done with cons run by this particular organiser because he’s not organised, he’s a no receipt, no set prices, no set times kind of guy. I don’t like that. We were told the con ran 10-5 on Saturday, only to find out at 4:30 that he decided it’ll run until 7. When I called him out on it, he said “Well, didn’t you look at the website to see who the guests are?” NO, no I did not look at the website because I’m a fucking VENDOR and I don’t give a shit who the guests are! This guy can’t even be bothered to send out a goddam email to the people who are paying him for the privilege of setting up at his shitty cons. It’s just rude and careless and I think I’m done with him. There are some other up and coming cons that I think I’d rather get in with than this guy.

Hmm, I think I need to hook up my external speakers. I don’t think Nick did that when he set the MacPro up last night. ::geek geek geek:: :)