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Stand or Fall

This song has been in my head for days. While it’s written about WWII, it is still VERY relevant. My favourite verse is in bold. It gives me chills.

Stand or Fall
The Fixx
from Shuttered Room, 1983

Crying parents tell their children
If you survive don’t do as we did
A son exclaims there’ll be nothing to do to
Her daughter says she’ll be dead with you

While foreign affairs are screwing rotten,
Line morale has hit rock bottom
Dying embers stand forgotten
Talks of peace were being trodden

Stand or fall, state your peace tonight
Stand or fall, state your peace tonight
Is this the value of our existence
Should we proclaim with such persistence

Our destiny relies on conscience
Red or blue, what’s the difference
Stand or fall, state your peace tonight
Stand or fall, state your peace tonight
It’s the Euro theatre
It’s the Euro theatre
It’s the Euro theatre

An empty face reflects extinction
Ugly scars divide the nation
Desecrate the population
There will be no exaltation

Stand or fall, state your peace tonight
Stand or fall, state your peace tonight
It’s the Euro theatre
It’s the Euro theatre
It’s the Euro theatre

Stand or fall
Stand or fall
Stand or fall
Stand or fall

Songwriters: Adam Woods / Charles H Barrett / Cyril Curnin / James West-Oram / Peter Greenall
Stand or Fall lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

Here is the original video from 1983, the record is Shuttered Room.

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Angela’s Salsa Verde

I was looking for a recipe somewhere in between a salsa cruda and a cooked salsa verde that you usually see. Roasting the tomatillos and jalapeños hits that balance perfectly. Enjoy!

Angelas Salsa Verde


Angela’s Salsa Verde
about 1.25# tomatillos**, dehusked and rinsed, halved
2 jalapenos, halved and deseeded
1 small white onion, large dice
2-3 cloves garlic, diced
1/4 cup cilantro leaves
1 tsp cumin
zest of one lime
1 tsp of lime juice (about half a lime)
salt to taste

Roast the tomatillos and jalapeños under the broiler until skin is bubbly and there are some blackened spots. You are not going for totally blackened like you would for a roasted red pepper, just some charred spots. Toss all ingredients into a blender with just a couple of Tbl of water to get it going. Whizz until fairly smooth. Check for salt. Chill and serve.

**My tomatillos were so sweet and delicious they did not need sugar, but if yours are still too tart, feel free to add just a little sugar or agave to get the taste you want.

NB: Tomatillos have a LOT of pectin! When I pulled this out of the fridge, it looked like jello! If it doesn’t loosen up enough for you after you stir it, you can add a tish of water to thin it down. Just a heads up!

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Anthony Bourdain RIP (6.25.56 – 6.8.18)

I am heartbroken at the loss of Bourdain. He was one of the most honest, no bullshit chefs out there. He was also a really good memoir writer.

I really hate that the depression (or whatever it was) got to him and he decided to end it. I uphold his right to do so, but I don’t like losing his unique voice in the food industry. He’s one chef I’d have LOVED to share a meal and a drink with.

Between this and losing sleep with stress and insomnia, it’s been a rough week.

I’m just going to keep cooking, keep planning for the pub and keep MOVING. As Tony once said:

“If I’m an advocate for anything, it’s to move. As far as you can, as much as you can. Across the ocean, or simply across the river. The extent to which you can walk in someone else’s shoes or at least eat their food, it’s a plus for everybody.

Open your mind, get up off the couch, move.”

– Anthony Bourdain

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VSG Anniversary coming up!

On May 16, it will be two years since my Vertical Sleeve Gastrectomy in Mexico. I’ve not posted here or at YouTube in quite some time, simply because I am very stable and not much has changed. I hit a hard plateau at 180 pounds which translates to size 12 jeans (actually like a half size below that) and 12-14 dress. I’m fine with that. Without surgery, I’ll never get rid of the belly flab, and I’ve decided against tummy tuck surgery. It is HORRIBLE to recover from and I just don’t have time for that shit. Or the money, honestly. And there are things like Spanx to deal with it!!

In addition to that, Nick’s 45th birfday is May 10. It’s a Thursday, so I’m not sure what we’ll do.

And, of course, we’ve got the pub thing ongoing. I’ve been working on the menu, trying not to FREAK OUT that there is no real estate available.

And on top of all this, my friend Kenny dropped dead of a heart attack on Friday April 13, so that has been rough. Friday 13 has always been a good day for me, but now, not so much. Sigh. He was my age, too. He had untreated heart issues and literally dropped dead. At least he didn’t suffer. The memorial was yesterday and of course: it sucked. His wife Carole has stage 4 ovarian cancer, so it’s all just really terrible. Sigh.

So, as you can see, the VSG anniversary is not very important to me with all this other stuff going on. I’m still grateful I did it and I still feel FABULOUS, and I still recommend it if you’ve been struggling with your weight your whole life like I did. It is absolutely worth it. Save yourself the agony of US healthcare and just go to Mexico. You, too, can have a new life in 4 days and $5000. Fuck your insurance company and their bullshit “plan” that forces you through hoops for a year then offers you no follow up care. Just DO IT.

I think I will lose that last 10# when I am crazy busy with the pub. I did lose 5# when I was working 7 days a week there for a month. But whatever, I’m not dieting and I’m not getting plastic surgery, so it is what it is. I’m happy with the way I look in clothes, so it’s all good. :)

I’d like to wish Nick a Happy Birfday in advance and myself a happy VSG anniversary!

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Happy 14th Anniversary to us!

2018 has been and will continue to be an “interesting” year. LOL

Today we celebrate our 14th wedding anniversary and our 18th year together. Amazing!

I’ve got the best partner in the world and we’re going to do great things. Love you, Nick!!

I’m also happy to announce that I gave notice at the fucking Krobar. After the union rep trying to intimidate me and a customer verbally accosting me, I walked straight to the wine steward and said “I AM OUT. Consider this my notice.” He was actually bummed and apologized for the dickhead customer. Which I appreciate. As for the union bitch, she can eat a bag of dicks. Intimidation and bullying doesn’t work with me, honey. I’ll just report you to the Kroger complaint line like I am the rest of this shitshow. I don’t give a damn. Kroger is a shitty place to work and I don’t care what anyone thinks about that statement. I am too good to work there, period.

So, almost rid of Kroger and about to embark on launching the new project. AND today is a lovely day to hang out in Decatur and celebrate our Anniversary. SWEET!