No matter how our hearts ache, life just keeps on coming. It’s a good thing, I think.

Dickens’ cremains are at the vet today, but I’ve not picked them up yet. I was in a crappy mood this afternoon and didn’t feel like going out again once I’d gotten home. Tomorrow I will pick them up. Wonder how that will feel? (I’ll let you know.)

Let’s see, what else? Oh, does anyone have the Dido CD entitled No Angel? I really want a copy of it. I heard it while having lunch at Mangrove Alley in L5P the other day and I really liked it. Don’t bother with Mangrove Alley, BTW. The Vortex is worth the wait! Also, that CD has a track on it called “My Lover’s Gone” that is sad and wistful and SO fits my mood right now. Email me or post here if you wanna hook me up.

Xpost from LJ:

Dickens is in renal (kidney) failure. There is nothing more to be done for him. I brought him home because that’s what he wanted, but it’s really REALLY hard.

He is not in any pain, he’s just winding down. His blood pressure is very low, he is sleeping.

I pray to the goddess that she takes him soon.

I can’t stand this much longer. I don’t want to force him to go – I feel that it’s his decision. He’s always been a willful child and he’s no different right now. He wants to be home, he wants to do his thing. He calls when he wants me and then he goes back to sleep. I have a tranquilizer that I can give him if he gets agitated and that may push him into leaving this life if he so chooses. Time will tell.

I’ll not be answering calls or emails until this situation concludes. I just can’t think or do anything but sit with him and cry.

Thanks to all of you who have been so supportive in this very difficult time.

I’ll post again when he passes.

Yah, the spammers are out in force today! I just got whacked with 20 comment spams. Thank the gods for MT Blacklist!

I’m recovering from the cold I’ve been battling for about 5 days. Since it’s a virus, I know it’s about to run its course, but it’s still annoying. I’ve not had a cold in so long that I can’t recall the last time. I had absolutely nothing in the house for it, either, so I had to stock up. Hell, at least it was just an annoying cold and not the flu.

Today is about doing some more cleaning up around here and putting things away. I let Dickens out and he gave the yard a quick scout then demanded to come back in. Heh, I guess this housecat stuff has its bennies after all, like HEAT! Bernie is still out there skulking about. Last I saw, she was under the house. I didn’t want them under there, but someone left the door open last night so in she went. Oh, well, she’ll come in when she’s damned good and ready and not one second before. Such is the way of the Bernadette.

Well, off to clean and organize!